Control

I like having control over many aspects of my life. I remember receiving my O-level results and not feeling in control of my future. I wanted to be in control of my JC and uni years, and so I worked towards that. Sometimes the rationale for control was flawed – to avoid fear and disappointment. I kick people out of my lives faster than they can leave. Controlling the amount of hurt I might potentially feel.

I found it extremely difficult to appreciate the sensations of uncertainty once I had a taste of it.

I don’t have a solution. But at the end of the day, I know that there are two things I can’t control. The weather and who loves me.